I knew I had to do something when I said to my husband, “I hope someone saves us the trouble of a trial when they catch that guy”. (not that it matters, but I’m talking about the military guy who killed the pregnant girl in North Carolina)

I’m – Okay; I was going to say I’m not a vindictive person by nature, not an eye for an eye type of gal. But that’s not really true, although I’ve been working VERY HARD to be a more tolerant and empathetic person. Reading about children being thrown off bridges, and mothers to be burned beyond recognition, and potential leaders of the free world signing off on racist propaganda- not am effective way to further my goal of inner and outer peace.

To that end, I reset my router, rudimentarily, I admit- but it works- and I’m blocking cnn.com. I’m a little embarrassed to admit this; I feel like I should tell you I read bbc.com or indymedia or some other such thing, but the truth is that my fingers fly up there to the address bar of their own volition sometimes and before I can say “no news is good news!” I find myself on cnn.com reading headlines. Sinking deeper and deeper with each click of the mouse, yet unable to turn away.

Then I spread it around: “did you hear about the apartment fire in Chicago? Did you see the found that body? Did you watch the hostage video?”- Because it’s not good enough to be all-alone under the oppressive cloud of headline news. I must dilute my terror by infecting others.

So we find ourselves sitting around the dinner table, appetites lost, afraid of everything. Sharing this burden of misery. Feeding off each other, feeding the drama.

So I’m done. I don’t expect to be kitten whiskers and smiley faces from here to eternity; I am me, after all. But for now I’m getting along just fine without the news, and I recommend this fast to anyone feeling crushed under the weight of it all.